|Posted by Valerie Anderson-Stallworth on June 2, 2010 at 4:09 PM|
Today I have taken a huge step. I found myself able to go back into the "office". I was not sure if I was ready for that, or ready to see anyone there, but God is wonderfull, all of the time. "Fear cannot take hold unless it is fed." Franklin Graham "...I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4 What a day this has been. I rose to the wonderful blessings all around me, and thanked God for watching over me as I slept. It has not taken me long to get used to doing the "Happy Dance" under the sheets in the morning. I really did take it for granit that I have this wonderful man here, by my side, loving me, trusting me, and honoring me for who I am. What a gift he is to my life. What an assett he has been to my family. Mr. Willie, Papa Willie, Uncle Willie, Willie, my Boo, is the best there is for me. I can not remember the last time I was able to sleep in past 6:30 or 7:00 am. Nope, that hasn't happened in a while. I slowly took my time rising until I heard Ari's sweet voice calling Grandma... Grandma...., then Good-morning Grandma. Good morning Ari... It's been such a pleasure to see the kids off to school each morning. Arianna, Maurice and Dela all catch the same bus going to the same school each day, and I love the fact that they are living and growing up as a family. They come home together in the afternoon, until they are picked up by their parents. Amber is up and out of the house by 8:00 am. She is responsible enough to get herself up and together in the morning, then out of the house by 8. I am so proud of her growth over the last few years. She is growing up to be quite the little lady. I talked to Margaret today. It was so nice to reconnect. I do hope we will keep in touch. Only a few more APSR's left. I cleaned the house a bit, got some things together on the computer, then headed to pick up Sheria, one of my God Daughters. She is graduating from HS on Saturday and had rehearsal this morning, then Sheria and I made that trek into town. How easy it has been for me to forget that long morning drive. How easy it has been for me to forget that crazy rush hour traffic. How easy it has been for me to forget the coldness that was the "office". I had to take care of some business, and wanted to put all fear behind me so I could move on. It was nice to see familiar faces at the door. They only took a moment to buz me in. I was almost expecting a security check point before entrance. I also had a moment to spend with an old friend. Only a moment, but a good moment. Wow... a quick burger stop on the way home, Willie off to work, the kids in from school, the kids off to Karate, and all before 5:00. The house is quiet except for the water from the acquarium, an occassional bird, or bark from a neighboring dog. Today, I met the fear head on. I prayed for the fear. I prayed for myself, and I prayed for everyone else who has to conquer their own fear. Today, with God's help... I won.